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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

MAN! Today I went shopping and stuf and then when I come back I see that Ronnie Radke - Escape The Fate is sentenced! I am SOO mad cuz I was planing to go see them this year! =( THIS IS THE WORST NEWS EVER!! =(

Merry late X-MAS!!!

Hey everybody!

I just want to wish everybody a REALLY late x-mas! I didn't get on for a few days so yeah! lol

I hope you all got what you wished you'd get so yeah! but anyways....

To all me Fan Fic readers...I will be posting the new chapter of Will You Dance To This Beat and Hold A Lover Close next week. I've been REALLY busy but I will post it up!

Well thats all I wanted to say so...

PEACE!!!!

Will You Dance To This Beat and, Hold A Lover Close? Chap. 2

Okay...so this my second chapter! so...I hope you enjoy it and comment on it and tell me what I should do better! =D

-Cindy

Chapter 2

"So...what do you feel like eating today?" Ryan asked me

"Um...well I don't know...what do you feel like eating?" I said

"Well I was thinking of eating some subway if that's okay." He said

"Okay then that sounds good I love Sub Way." I said as Ryan Opened the door of his car. "Thanks." I say and he closes it.

"Your welcome" He mouths and walks to the other side of the car.

"So...guess what" I say. as he climbs into the car and puts on his seat belt.

"What?"

"Well while William was over he asked me to come on tour with you guys and I said YES!" I say smiling at him

"You are!? That is SO cool! Now we get to see each other more!" He says smiling back

"Yeah...and I get to enjoy all the wonderful music that you guys make!" I say

"So...I guess that this isn't the last time we're gonna see each other!" He says as we pull out of the apartment parking and onto the street.

"Yeah, I hope we have lots of fun on tour." I say

"Yeah...although people think that being on the road is fun...its really not you know... sometimes I get home sick...and I feel like I wanna go back home and sleep on my own bed but I can't do that...but I think that having you along will be much better since you remineded me of home..." Ryan says flashing a smile at me.

"Well...I'm hoping I don't get home sick then." I say smiling back at him. I can't believe that Ryan was telling me this...I mean I really like him...but I doubt that anything is gonna happen between us...but I won't get my hopes up just yet...how can I if he just said that I made him feel like home!

"Well you're the lucky one cause you get to go home when ever you want...I can't." He says.

"I wouldn't leave you if you felt home sick...that would be mean." I say touching his hand on the steering wheel.

"Thanks."

During that second that my hand was on his I felt like there was some type of connection...like if we were meant to be together...STOP! I think...Ryan and I are ONLY Friends and nothing else

after that it was pretty much awkward silence. Then I wondered where Hobo was...

"Hey, where is Hobo?" I asked

"Oh he's with Brendon. We will be picking him up after we eat." Ryan said getting the hint that it was really awkward not talking

"So...whats your favorite song right now?" He asked.

"Um...well I have been listening to Escape The Fate a lot lately so I'll say Situations. I really love the guitar part and the lyrics are fun to sing along to as well." I said.

"That cool! I've heard of Escape the Fate but I haven't heard that song." Ryan said

"You haven't...well you can listen to it on my iPod." I said getting my brand new iPod touch that I have gotten on my birthday

"Wow you already go the iPod Touch!? I'm jealous NOW!"

"Really?" I said looking at him

"No...just playing...I'm gonna get one later on...I still like my iPod video." He said putting one of the ear buds in his ear.

"Sweet. I wanted one but I never got it." I said scrolling threw all the artist.

"So how many songs do you have on there right now?" He asked stopping at the stop light.

"Um...I think about 752 songs...I'm always buying new songs and stuff." I say finally finding Escape The Fate

Situations are irrelevant now.
She loves the way that I tease,
I love the way that she breathes

I touched her ooh, she touched my ahhh, it was the craziest thing.
I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh.
She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night

She can't behave and I'm just a slave,
donâ�™t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
dying is your latest fashion.

The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put it in my lap
*It's way too... she said once you have me you'll always come back.

She can't behave and I'm just a slave,
donâ�™t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
dying is your latest fashion.

I know you love to resist
and all it takes is a kiss
and you just love to hate me.

You know you love all the lies
so donâ�™t act surprised
that I just love to hate you.

I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing.
I love the girls who love to hate. [Breathing]

(Whoa) Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins,
dying is your latest fashion

Darling (leave me) what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me (darling) go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins,
dying is your favorite passion

(Just in case you haven't hear the song It will be posted at the bottom of the Chapter)

"Wow that was a good song." he said taking the ear bud out.

"I know the lyrics are sorta bad but...I still like it.I bet that if my parents listened to this song they would be all like "YOU CAN'T BE LISTING TO THAT TYPE OF MUSIC" I said laughing turning of my iPod Touch.

"Yeah? Well parents can be like that." He said. Now we were at Sub Way.

"Okay lets go in. Hey I was thinking we buy the sub way then we pick up hobo and we eat it in the park...if your not that hungry that is" Ryan said

"That sounds good to me." I said. I was hungry but I didn't want to inter fear with what he had in mind.

"Okay let go then." He said getting out the car and running over to my side and opening the door.

"Thanks Ryan...but you don't have to do that." I said.

"No its okay...I'm always like that." He said blushing.

"Okay...so should we go in and order?" I asked

"Sure! After you." He said opening the door

"Thanks." I said

"What would you like to order?" He asked me.

"Um...I'll get the cold cut combo." I said

"I love that one!" He said "Do you want a foot long or a 6 in."

"A 6in. I can't eat all that by myself." I said

"What would you like to order Mr.?" A lady said to Ryan.

Ryan ordered the food and paid even thought I insisted to pay for my half but he wouldn't let me.

"Okay so its of to find Brendon." He said as he started up the car and turned onto the street.

"Okay" I said.

"Hey can you look him up on my cell...I really don't like to talk while I drive...especially look up numbers." He said

"Yep...Here..." I said handing the phone over to him

"Can you put him on speaker better?" he said

"Yeah sure."

"Hey Ryan! whats up?" Brendon said

"Hey! nothing much, Ren and I are going over to find you...where are you at?" said Ryan

"Ren is there with you?"

"Yeah you're on speaker phone if you wanted to say hi to her."

"Hey Ren whats up?"

"Nothing much...you?" I said

"Nothing just looking after Hobo." Bden said

"Sweet." I said

"So...are you at your house?" Ryan asked

"Yeah...you owe me cause Hobo peed on the carpet." he said

"Okay...well we're gonna head over there then." Ryan said

"Okay then I'll see both you ya's in a few!" he said

"Okay then...bye!"

"Bye."

Situations - Escap...

Will You Dance to this Beat and, Hold a Lover Close?

Okay so before you read this Fan-Fic I think that you should know that this is my FIRST EVER Fan-Fic that I have EVER written. So sometimes the story might be a bit weird but PLEASE BARE WITH ME! Oh and I hope you enjoy! -Cindy

Chapter 1

"WILLIAM WHERE IS MY CELL PHONE!" I yell out into the hall way.My voice echos in the small apartment that own.

"I have it I'm gonna use is to call Sisky." William says as he walks in to my room

"Well...you have your OWN phone so call him on yours." I say.

"Sorry but my phone is discharged so I can't call Sisky" He said

"Is the call gonna take long cause I'm waiting on a call." I say

"No...just about 2 minutes...." [RING, RING,RING]

I grabed the cell out of Williams hand and answered

"Hello?"

"Hey Ren its me Ryan."

"Oh Ryan...hey whats up?"

"Oh you were waiting on a call from Ryan Hu?" William said.

"Shut up...sorry Ry...Will is over." I said

"Yeah I heard him in the background. So how are you?"

"I'm good...just chillin' with William."

"Oh sounds cool. Hey I was wondering if you would like to come with me to Lunch today."

"Sure like about what time?"

"Um...like about 12:00."

"Sure. I would love to."

"Yeah...today is my last night in town so I wanted to hang out with you."

"Aw...thanks for inviting me then."

"Um...also...after lunch would you be okay if we walk around the park with Hobo?"

"Yeah its okay! Its a very nice day to walk around the park."

"Okay then...I'll be there in an hour."

"Sounds good to me."

"Alright."

"Bye then..."

"Bye!"

"Whoa...that was 3 minutes and 10 seconds" William says.

"Thanks for counting." I say

"No Problem...what did Ryan say?"

"Um...he's gonna be taking me out to lunch..." I say sorta shyly...

"Oh...looks like Ryro likes you...that's SO cute!" William says

"Ryan and I are only gonna go out as friends..." I say blushing

"Well...still...its cute!" He says.

"What time is he gonna come? Cause...you know...I wanna know!"

"Um...12."

"Okay...that's good...cause I wanted to ask you something..."

"What is it!?"

"Um...well...you know that your like my sister...right?"

"Yeah..."

"Well...I really want you to come on tour with me!" William said

"What did you just say!?" I said in shock...did William Beckett...the guy that I have known for like...EVER was asking me to come on tour with him and Panic at the Disco and Cobra Starship...

"Yeah you heard right...I know that I should have asked you earlier but I just...forgot until Ryan called." William said..."So...will you come?"

"Um...lets see....If YOU can help me pack in like...less that an hour then yes..."

"So...that's a YES right!?"

"YEAH!!" I said running over to William and giving him a hug. "Will...your the BEST!" I said hugging him even Harder."

"Ren...you are my best friend and this is a BIG tour with all the bands that you like...so...I wanted to take you along...and the boys are happy too. They like you a lot!" William said

"Okay..well help me pack." I said

"Right! I'll get the thing you need from the bathroom and you get your clothing things..." He said

"Yeah...okay..." I said running over to my room.

In no time...my apartment was a mess. William had to help me get my hair stuff and towels and things like that and get the food from the fridge and stuff and I was getting my clothing and make up ready. I also had to call my parents to let them know that I was going to be gone for awhile and they didn't take it lightly...they were all like...Renae Elizabeth...you shouldn't be leaving with out telling us in advance...You are only 21 and anything can happen on that bus, AND your our ONLY child what if something bad happens and we don't know where you are!?" But then I convinced them to let me go and that they could call me when ever they wanted...Then they talked to Will and told him to watch after me...and Will will do that...he's like the brother that I never had and its really awesome...after that convo with my parents everything was in order and all we had to do is wait for Ryan.

"Hey Ren...aren't you gonna get ready for lunch with Ryan?" William askes

"OMG! Thanks for reminding me! Um...I'll be right back..." I say running into my room and opening my suit case...I found a den em skirt and some back legging and a pink shirt that said "I'm not short I'm Fun Size!". I put that on and put my hair in a pony tail...I thought that the pony tail look wouldn't look so good because I had some Hot Pink streaks in it for the last 7 weeks but it looked really good. I also found my sun glasses so I decide that I was going to ware them. As for shoes I wore my black ballet flats...which wasn't a good idea because I'm really short...if I stand next to William I'm only a little less than shoulder high.

"Wow...you look like your a rock star." William said he smiled and cleared a spot for me on the couch.

"Thanks." I said sitting down next to him "Thanks again for letting me tour with you." I said a William put his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"You very welcome...why wouldn't I your like the sister that I wish I had." He said..."Remember when we were in 3rd grade and we were into skate boarding?"

"Yeah...and we were going down that one hill my the music and art room...and there was that one kid there and I almost ran into him!"

"Yeah! That was SO fun...its a miracle that we didn't get caught." he said.

"Yeah! I wonder what would happen if we did it and a teacher were out there."

"Then we would get into..."

[buzzz]

"Oh that must be Ryan. DON'T EMBARRASS ME IN FRONT OF HIM OKAY!?"

"Yeah okay." William said

I got up and went towards the door.

"Hey Ren..." Ryan said he was carrying some red roses. "These are for you." He said handing me the roses.

"Thank you so much...come in. How did you know that I liked roses?" I asked him as he went in.

"Um...I just guessed." He said in a shy but cute way.

"Well then you must know me VERY well then." I said putting the roses in water.

"Hey Ryan! Fancy meeting you here!" William said and they shook hands.

"Yeah. So are you ready for the first concert tonight?" Ryan asked

"Yeah! I'm really pumped. Well... I should be going now. I have to packs still...Ren if you want I can stop by later on today and pick everything up."

"Sure you have the extra house key right?"

"Yeah. Okay well I see you two later." William said and he left.

"So...you wanna go now?" Ryan asked

"If you want." I said.

"Alright then...After you..." He said opening the door.

"Thanks."

And we were off.

Waste

My life is almost wasted

Cuz I just day dream everyday

Thoughts of reaching stardom seem to go away

I need to start focusing on things to make me get all A's

Lik my parents always say.

But I find that impossible!

I could nevery do that.

I'm just a Girl whose dearms are always on stage.

I dream that thousands of people will come and see the show and

but reality is that...

I'm not a star.

I can day dream all I want but

I know thats a waste of my time.

So I end up cutting myslef

to get me off that day dream cloud.

And Cutting helps me A LOT!

-Cindy

A story

In the vast valley I see myself.

Thinking how the day goes by, almost like you and I.

I don't think that I could do anything else to get your attention.

Now I am asleep and in my bed and when I have a dream I am at; the ocean walikng on the beach.

The sand is hot the water is salty.

I get in the water and I start to swim. Everywhere I swim I can hear your voice and feel your sight

I have NO clue why you are in my dreams but there you are.

I open my eyes. I forgot that the water was salty so it burns.

It feels like 1,000 needles going into my eyes

I get out of the ocean and get back on the dry sand. I feel really blind

Then when the pain is over and open my eyes I see you ther right

Next to me; sitting there looking at me.

I get up and walk away but you get up too and follow.

I sit back down and you do the same. So I get up again and run, you do the same thing.

I stop, you stop. You talk

But I don't listen. I really want to go. So I do but you hold me back.

I really can't stand it when you are here with me. I try everything I can to get you out of my thoughts

Its really no use cuz you always pop up!!

Now I am dead in life. You killed me but I still live! I really want to go out of this

World and be someone else. It will be like a cycle.

I die and get reborn.

You die and you will get reborn.

It's a never ending cycle.

But untill that day I will still be having the same dream.

Me at the ocean and you following me.

But I will change 1 thing

instead of openig my eyes I will keep them closed and

keep swimming and swim far away where the Jelly fish and Sharks roam.

I will try to swim with the most deadlyest creatues of the ocean and I will not get harmed

by them and I will try never to wake up.